Dilemma

God has given lots of grace to someone like me.
I don't have outstanding academic result, social network and marvelous background. However, my Lord guided my way and provided opportunities to me.

Reviewing my short career life, I got promoted in the second year. I can have a break after my first job. Then I got hired job by job. The scale of my company is much bigger than the last ones. Thanks God for blessing my career. I'm happy for that escalation (hope to be paid more!!).

Now another potential step-up arrives. GM told that my colleague and I might go to Singapore for a 4-week training. Although everything's not confirmed at the time being, I can't help thinking how I can survive.

It will be tough. My company won't pay me to 'hea' in this 4 weeks. Intensive training, testing and learning are predicted. How exhausted!!!

Also, I have never been away from my home for 1 month. Probably I might not have home-sick. What I'm worrying is how I can take care of myself. Under extremely stressful work, my temper would be really bad. Following tense mental condition, negative thoughts(I start thinking I might die in a totally strange place on my own) and poor health, it's all killing me!!!!!!

I am a notorious worrier. Struggling between opportunities and my own shortcomings has always happened in my career life.

If the training is confirmed, I do hope I can handle it and be alive to return :)